Anxiety

Spent a whole morning in the X-Ray room... lying down in the test bed, no ideas would be come out. Life and health is so fragile. I didn't know what will happen, is it my fate? I did nothing wrong to others, always be a good person. Willing to help others and support them, if they asked or in trouble. What's going wrong with me!!! The docotor and the nurse were not bed. But, the process is not so smooth. The nurse could not find out a proper vein to inject the test dye into my arm. She hit four holes on my both hands... luckily, she got a proper one at last. As she mentioned on a statement that 1 out of 40k would go to the heaven if the patient was allergy to the dye. And luckily, no serious feeling came to me, expect watching her finding my vein.

"Take a deep breath, hold, Miss". The nurses kept asking me to do the same thing before making the X-ray films.

Finally, the test was completed. We said goodbye to each other and one nurse told me that the report could be available one month later. It seemed that this was a very small test and nothing serious at all. All of us were smiling and I went out.

I come to realize that the Health is the most important thing for the human-beings. I lost part of it. I was extremly drepressed before the test. After that, I felt somehow better. This is a process only. I got to do more in my future life... Should I keep on being a good person or try to get my benefits by all means? What a world it is. Today is the Christmas Eve. There are so many laughs on the street and the buildings are decorated so beautiful. Just me, just me, walking down the street and thinking about how to get survive...